ahhh life at 23... A lot has happenned this year, some good and some bad, but overall a good year! I've experienced a lot of new things and I've grown and learned a lot about myself and life in general. Quite a few people have come in and out of my life but each of these people have touched me in some way and have either taught or introduced me to something new whether it be music, a place, ideas, or something philosophical. I feel that out of all my years, 2006-2007 was the ones where I experienced the most growth. I'm thankful for those of you who have been a part of it and I hope one day to share my experience and my new ideas with all of you.
Time to reflect...
I still can't believe that he thinks I lied to him, I tried explaining but once someone has decided what he/she want to believe in be it right or wrong you can never make them change their mnd, so why bother explaining some more? How Do you know I was lying when you weren't even there to begin with? You know what they say " Ask and you shall recieve" but did you ever asked NO. Regrets? I am after all human, I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason although there is still one thing I have yet to find meaning in... and until then, it remains a regret... I just wish I had been more careful but I guess you live and you learn..
I have changed a lot. Yes, I'm a much more positive person and more self-aware. I think I've learned to truly love myself and be more comfortable in my own skin. The most significant thing I've learned is that I've discovered who I want to be and what I truly want out of life. I've learned that everything happens for a reason but I must continue to look for meaning if I want to make the most of it and grow from it.
The High Point of the year is becoming more self-aware and finding happiness. And of course there's the Low point of the year; Allowing certain "evil spirits" to invade my life... sacrificing so much of myself to someone who was completely unworthy. Learning to see the good and beauty in everything... not just in my "breakdowns" but in people, in my surroundings, in my experiences, in all things. All things can have a positive outcome if you make the attempt to find it. This is what helps you to learn and grow and helps you find the person you are and discover the person you want to be. It's about finding the positive things in life... "let go"... "there's beauty in the breakdown".
.My resolution next year is to remain positive and concentrate on my future and my dreams. Be more proactive and take steps to lead myself to where I want to be. (AKA moving out, handling my business, saving more money, becoming more independent, etc.) It's time! I'm ready for school and I finally decided to do something about my vision problem as well, I am scared but I am going to do it. I want to be able to do more. I know I am capable of doing so much more, more brilliant things are waiting for me out there. And since my vision is the main thing that's holding me back, I am willing to make a move to change that.
and also meet people and really get to know them on a deeper level. Fight temptation.
I'm adopting a no commitment = no sex policy. For the new year.
Why? because I would like to experience something real and beautiful this time.